My 3:04 AM Dilemma.
I have music in my head that I don’t know how to play.
And I see colors in my dreams that I don’t know how to paint when I wake up.
I see shapes that I can barely sketch, and numbers that would take me far too long to calculate with my TI-83 from high school, so it feels like my hands are tied.
The closest I can come to expressing it is writing words that explain the way that they make me feel. I’m fairly good at that, but only describing the emotions behind what I’m actually seeing and hearing is limiting. Even though, I can write vividly and I’m masterful with imagery——I wish you could see it for yourself.
I wish I could offer guided tours into my mind.
But I’m always in here alone.
Maybe it’s best that way.